NO I AM NOT SAYING YOU EXIST BUT I AM NOT NOT SAYING THAT EITHER

Isabel Kim

so it is always a poem about you
my darling amorphous nonexistent girlboyfriend
exlover currentlover loversoontobe
your eyes your hair your soul etcetera
special special special etcetera
so all of that was ecstatic fantastic mindblowing my god i will never find individuality like yours
worthy of the page: universalization of your self
whereas i am slamshut back into the universalized authorgodship
asian etcetera girl etcetera writer etcetera
etcetera and all that entailed i could not stop being
who i was (what i continued to be)
(separate) in some ways you were an existence far beyond mine
and i was the one who never existed:
that is to say, you were the one carefully laminated to the page in some god damned
immortality, and me, i got to be fucking god.

Isabel Kim is a writer and a stranger who can be reached at isabel.kim.